From Forgiveness to Freedom: Moving Through Toxic Systems

I’ve taken many risks in life — leaving my home at 17, the morning after High School graduation; living in Greenwich Village alone at 19; starting my own business in NYC at 25 with enough cash in the bank for two months of living expenses, moving to LA for a job opportunity, being an independently employed entrepreneur and consultant most of my career, moving from LA to rural Montana, and publishing a memoir involving a taboo and sensitive topic.

But my most significant risk would be not following my inner small voice and embracing the Earthly experiences presented to me.

After a successful career matching celebrities to brands and as a producer for television and film, I chose to make a shift and leave a legacy of healing and freedom.

At age 25, I was harassed in the workplace, and when I confronted my boss. I was promptly fired. Out of that trauma, I chose to create my own business rather than sit in the position of victim.

I sealed my first deal by knocking on the door of the Factory to convince Andy Warhol (yes, that Andy Warhol) to do a Pontiac commercial he had no interest in doing. That contract substantiated my ability to bring A-list talent to projects.

The Magic of Trauma Healing and Honoring the Signs

Tenacity has followed me throughout my career. I’ve taken chances, stepped up, and believed. I’ve also not shied away from risks and reinvention.

In 2007, an Irish Seer told me I had a book to write that would help many. I promptly shoved that idea under the carpet until it reappeared in 2019.

Back-to-back, two intuitives told me I had a book to write, and I started to believe the sign in front of me. And when the third intuitive told me I had three books to write, I could no longer ignore the flashing neon lights. Not wanting this prophecy to mushroom into a library of books to write, I decided to get to it.

Out of Trauma Comes Freedom

“Toxic Family: Transforming Childhood Trauma into Adult Freedom” is the trajectory of my personal and professional journey and was published last year.

Frankly, I did not think my experience would be of much interest to others — I couldn’t be more wrong.

Though successful in my career as a producer, creating conversation around the taboo topic of toxic family issues and helping others through some of the same trauma I walked through with a new perspective is absolutely the reason I am here.

This is my life purpose.

Though I’ve faced difficulties, I now see them as opportunities to become my authentic self and be happier as a human being.

Those challengers…I now see them as perfect players in my movie, bravely taking on their roles to give me an opportunity to boost my soul’s evolution.

What I am most proud of is that I stood up when it would have been just as easy to fall and refused the victim model.

I am proud that I am repeatedly coming full circle to feel compassion from my core — for myself and all others — breaking free from the patriarchal paradigm to enter a new matrix of freedom.

And I’m sharing my journey with you.

From Forgiveness to Freedom

Forgiveness, peace, and understanding now radiate from my being. Those who know me, work with me or have a passing conversation almost always say: your voice is hypnotic, you are so kind, and I feel heard and better just talking with you. Those heartfelt words make every moment I have left worth it.

The most helpful thing for me to succeed in my field is to come from my heart with authenticity, honesty, and integrity.

I’ve walked through the flames to learn from the lessons presented. My battle scars are now helping to heal those I’m privileged to serve.